Even Just a Little Thing

Time goes away
so fast
that I don`t realize
many years have passed
I`m still the same
I have done nothing
I feel so useless
But ...
If I try to think about it again
I realize one thing
that I find a movement
I have an achievement
Eventhough it`s just a little prize
or a tiny bit of happiness
it`s really something to be thanked for
I must be grateful
Now is the most important time
and it`s time to redeem myself
wish that I can be better
and better next time

Thursday, December 31st, 2015 (22:09 Surabaya)

Forgiving Myself

I often regret my wrongdoings
and feel like I`m the worst
It`s hard to forgive myself
But I try ...
Because I know
that the first step to move on again
is accepting reality
I must understand myself well
that I`m at fault
and I have to feel guilty
then regret all my sins
then ask for forgiveness
and if I want to be forgiven
I have to forgive myself first

Thursday, December 31st, 2015 (21:46 Surabaya)

My Journey

I know that my journey will not be the same anymore
But, it`s okay
As long as I can go around the world
anybody or anything following me
will not be a burden to me
For now, it`s a first trip I make
It`s good for a first step
That I finally begin my new path of life
it`s really great
and all thanks to Allah
I hope this will be a special journey
and my next steps will always be special
and make me better
With Allah guiding me all the time
I`ll leave my footprints in His lands

Monday, Desember 21st, 2015 (09:46 Surabaya)

Meski Hanya dalam Mimpi

sebegitu dalamnya perasaan ini
hingga begitu kuat keinginan ini
satu keinginan yang tiba-tiba terlintas
yang telah lama terlupa
tapi kini kembali menghinggapi ingatan
ingin bertemu denganmu
tapi apalah dayaku ini
tiada yang dapat kulakukan
karena itulah
aku ingin bertemu denganmu
meski hanya dalam mimpi

Kamis, 10 Desember 2015 (Surabaya)

Aku Tak Pernah Menyadarinya

Aku tersentak
oleh sebuah kesadaran
yang tak pernah terlintas
dalam benakku sebelumnya

Ya,
hal itu
hal yang sangat nyata itu
aku tak pernah menyadarinya
barulah kini
aku mengerti

Kamis, 10 Desember 2015 (Surabaya)